“Are you out of your mind?” “What are you thinking?” “Kerri, do you really think this is what you should be doing right now?” “Don’t you think it’s too soon?”
That’s what I’ve been expecting to hear the last few months as I’ve told close friends and family some incredible, even miraculous, news.
I’m getting married. It’s going to be a very tiny intimate wedding. And God is so good. In the valleys and on the mountains. I asked for a ring that looks like a crown of thorns. And it’s perfect.
Being a single mom is hard. SO hard. I had no idea until it smacked me right in the face. And I was afraid that the fear of being a single mom or a lonely mom or having to provide for my family would cause me to make a stupid decision and get into a bad relationship.
So, I took ALL the steps to ensure that wouldn’t happen. My counselor is an astonishing woman of God who has given me wisdom. I have laid aside my emotions and my fear and decided to make sure to approach the next relationship with logic, getting to know them very well before tying in my emotions.
And once things were secured and friends and family confirmed things over and over again, we pursued a relationship. And now, we are getting married.
Eric has a 5 year old daughter and she gets along beautifully with the other kids. Both Kindall and Coen have opened up their hearts to him and his daughter. Clara loves everyone by default so that’s been easy!
I’ve been so fearful of posting on this blog because people can be so… opinionated? And I also didn’t want to hurt any feelings. I know we all miss Kyle but this relationship doesn’t change that. It feels awkward to post a picture of Eric on his blog amidst all the pictures of Kyle but this blog isn’t about Kyle, really. It’s about my journey with Jesus through a terrible pain.
I stand on a firm foundation that this relationship is in the hands of Jesus. Eric’s full heart, mind, and soul are devoted to Jesus. He desires the same things I desire. We have the same goals. We complement each other’s personalities in wonderful ways. According to my counselor, “In my 35 years of counseling, you two are the most compatible couple I have ever counseled.”
Every family member (my own and Kyle’s as well) and friend I have spoken to has confirmed, encouraged, and supported this relationship.
So, in conclusion, I ask you, as my family and friends and those who have watched me grieve and heal and mature and grow in my faith, keep praying for me. For us. For each child and for our relationships between all of us. Pray for us on October 8th for Kyle’s birthday. Pray for us Dec. 21st as the 2 year anniversary of Kyle’s graduation to heaven is celebrated. Pray for us as the wedding day approaches. Support us. Love us. Accept and love Eric and his daughter as you love me and know that our hearts above all desire to follow Jesus’ guidance and love people always.